Saturday, March 19, 2011

On Trust...

You taught me one of the hardest lessons ever: To trust you.I believed in you even when the world believed there had to be something wrong with me. I chewed your words, digested your actions, I hoped a teaspoon too many in you. Physically grown, I was a fool to believe you were mentally grown. I stood at a defense platform when bullets of words, and arrows of thoughts tried to break you. I defended you to stupidity. As life has that tendency to screw us every now and again, sucking every trace of breath left in us, I nursed you back to life. I taught to to breathe in...and out; Not too fast, but not to slow, you will make it, you can do it, I trust in you, I believe in you. I was the voice I hoped to hear someone speak to me. I believed I created a bond that I would have sworn the devil himself would give up fighting to break. I lied to myself. Being human, I am physically drained, mentally incapable, emotionally distraught, spiritually weakened to anchor you yet again, on this same battlefield you deceitfully promised me you would never run back into again. I apologize for letting you teach me to trust you. You got me good. As I like to see goodness in every situation, I appreciate you for teaching me patience; when I should have been agitated, peace; When I should have been a bubble of anxiety, and laughter; when I should have been a well of tears. Some battles are best fought alone. This is me saying Goodbye. This is your battle, FIGHT!!!


Random fact:
~On the average, 12 newborns will be given to the wrong parents daily.


  1. i'm sorry he lead you to believe he was worth fighting for.

  2. Hope you're good dear?

    That trivia, what?!

  3. Somewhere inside us, we never truly give up the fight. May you win.

    PS: You're never alone. There are many of us winning battles like this every day. *Hugs*

  4. @Daij: It's not a "he" :) but thank you for stopping by.

    @Myne: I am well thank you, or getting there. The trivia, I was shocked as well. Congratulations on your book :)

    Jaycee: You are very right on the former statement if yours. Thank you for reminding me I am not alone.

  5. Maybe he's worth it.

    If he's fighting.

    You can help him fight silently with your prayers.

  6. Nobody would say you didn't try. Hope you feel better now :)

  7. Tisha: It's not a he lol But I will pray for her, now as always. Thanks for stopping by.

    BSNC: I am glad you feel me :) I feel wonderful thank you.

  8. if you believed in the person..and ur heart tells you its worth it, dont give up.. fight to the finish..

  9. aww sorry girl. hope u get over him asap.. boys are jerks lol

  10. @kitkat: thank you but it's not a "he" lol

  11. Y'know, when these sorta ish happens...the ONLY consolation may be that "I GAVE MY ALL, I LEFT NOTHING BACK".

    Pull yourself together luv, you'd heal with time.

    I should know, your thots reflect the greatest trial in my life ever.



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