**Ahem Ahem**

It has come to my notice that a lot of girls have been getting pregnant lately. It really bothers me for real. Young people that have not began to grow up are trying to create others lives, the saddest part is when it is time to choose what should be done. Why is there now a choice?? people no longer fear gettig pregnant or anything because they know it is not hard to go and take it out. Innocent lives that did not beg to come to this life. Is this some sort of epidemic?the funniest part is when the guy that kissed your bum and blinded you are deafened you with his lies, promising to love you forever no matter the circumstances hears that you are pregnant, you will become a 'stranger' to him. This nigger will not be there anymore...girls, PLEASEEEE wisen up ejooo!!! if trouble is sleepin DO NOT GO AND WAKE IT O! wetin concern fish with raincoat?! if you are not equal to the task, do not play the game.Why are kids getting pregnant? what happened to all the morals that mummy tortured us with when it was time for 'the talk'? What happened to the fear of God? are we taking His mercy for granted? It's the new in thing to be sleeping around now and getting pregnant. You are not supporting yourself but you want to support a child. Please save humanity the wahala and if you are not ready to be a parent, DO NOT CARRY CALABASH OOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! ehen!!! and DO NOT KILL.

PS: In the spirit of thanksgiving, do not forget to thank God for any and everything. He deserves it whether you like it or not. Do not over eat o people, and BE SMART! :)

Random fact:
~Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour and if you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have produced enough sound to heat up one cup of coffee.

Ebony!

Blog-O-War!!

hmmmmm! blogsville what is happening??

Where are all of your manners?

Why is there so much animosity?

Why is there so much friction between people?

I don begin to dey tire oh!

Is it the age group that is causing this?

There is too much display of immaturity and arrant rubbish here!

You people should sit back and take a chill-pill and re-evaluate wasap!

It's not right nowwww! haba...

Ku yi a hankali dan Allah!

E ma binu o!

You agree, you do not agree with what you see, you can clearly navigate away, it is even so much easier because with a click you are gone. LOL....Technology!!

There is no price to be won o! Just for the records.

Let's live in peace and happiness and be a jolly loving family.

Thank God I do not know how to insert links sef on this thing lol.

Do not be cursing around please, take it easy now and nothing is even that deep!

You people can kill o... the thought of the beef sef or animosity has made my brain tired.LOL I do not like wahala AT ALL!

So for the sake of Ebony and God, (For we who believe in God) calm down and apologise and be loving all over again!

I see alot of things here I do not like but I understand it is not my business and if I do not agree I will not get all rude and ish because I want my point to be heard.

This is getting out of hand o! You people need to calm down

This is eye abuse and brain abuse. I am broke and do not have money to buy tylenol or ibuprofen so instead of being Blog-warriors, channel your energy into becoming Prayer-warriors..LOOOL kai I'm too much! I make myself happy! :)

Ehen I hope you people are going to church tomorrow oh! all of you should come and tell me what you learnt! good shildren!

I don dey go oh! Lemme continue my facebook stalking before I get migraine in this place. Your plans will not work o!! I Curse every root of animosity and Chaos in this my blog family, devil PACK YOUR LOAD OH BEFORE I VEX AND STAND UP...*Reaches for Holy Water and handkercheif*. Every root that was planted to cause war here I Uproot it RIGHT NOW, fall down and DIE, DIE, DIE, in Jesus' MAGNIFICENT, MATCHLESS name! and blogsville will say.......AMIN, AMIN, AMINNNNN OOOOO!!!

Random fact:
~During lunch breaks in Carlsbad, New Mexico no couple should engage in a sexual act while parked in their vehicle, unless their car has curtains. :)

Ebony has spoken. GBAMMMMMM!!!

My First Love.

-We both went to the same primary school in Abuja Nigeria, from primary one all the way till primary four.After school every day I use to go to his house to play with him then. Mehn I have always been a playful child oh! from school I will not go home, I will take my change clothes in my bag to his house and eat and everything there.LOLThey had a big house with a large open field that accomodated my energetic hyper feet that actually made me weary to the point where I had to sleep, and for me to sleep in broad daylight, you will know that play dealt with me and defeated me. So yes you can say it has been there since primary one.....Not! (we just innocently played around and he has 2 sisters so we all had a lot of fun)

Fast-forward to my jss3.....

One faithful day like that oh, I was with a friend that was going on and on about some party that I was just not in the mood for. She begged and begged and was even getting annoyed with me all because I refused to go with her and so i finally put on some sloppy jeans and a shirt with the intention of just going to see my friends that I had not seen in a while for about 30mins and back to my house. So I approached the zone and low and behold O saw this dude with a blue hooded sweater sitting towards my left and backing me, hmmmmm na so the boy turn oh and I saw this dude that I saw 6years ago. He has the sexiest smile in this world oh, till tomorrow infact LOL so he gave me a biggggggggggggggg hug and all, but we did not really say much as he was getting ready to leave the party himself so we bid each other goodbye.

One bright afternoon, I had a message on facebook from this guy saying he had not seen me forever and I should facebook him my number and all that. I did all that sha and we began talking small small. I remember clearly, my then boyfriend (well I know I titled this my first love because this person I am talking about is the original love...so ehenn! LOL) and I just broke up and so I told him and he came to see me. I walked out of my gate then and I saw him walk out of a car, 'Outta my system' was playing I will never forget and I had on a black tank top with a studed heart imprinted in the middle and he was like "hmmm this one that your shirt has a heart on it, hope you are fine" and I replied I was.We began talking sha majorly from that day, his care really was magnetic to me. So on and on we went like that sha...I would be in class and he would sms me..."goodmorning my princess" and that would just distract me for the rest of the day. LOL

He disturbed me oh! hahaha (he will kill me if he sees this but he will never so oh well) he use to bother my life until i 'Pitied' him and just said okay lets do the whole dating business. Boom! it happened. He went to U.K about a month later and I was left in Abuja :( It hurt but you know the whole absence makes the heart grow fonder ish?! It worked for a while oh, I was Miss. Loyal but he never believes me till today. People use to talk alot of ish about him and give me proof right in my eye but I was always like 'let me swallow panadol for my own headache'. Everything felt so right when we were together I tell you. I was an original facebook stalker oh with him becauses that was basically all i really could do apart from webcam and all. He was ooo so romantic. I actually saw a potential future even though I was so young at the time. It was just specially exciting that he actually watched me grow up through life. That does alot to me.

After 11months of not seeing him and all, slowly I started loosing myself and doubt began to advice me on a daily basis on what i should have paid no mind to in the first place and the likes. It was a painful time and it still is when I think about it but today we speak really well. Strange but he still has a VERY SENSITIVE soft spot in my heart that I wonder if it will ever fade. It is the first love because I made my first mistakes and first everythings then and ALL my heart and soul went in. He was my first kiss also. *bllusshhhiinngg at the memory* lol.

He shortened my already short name to suit himself and till this day, gets rather upset when someone else (especially if another guy) calls me that name.LOL ......okay! so I was just walking down memory lane tonight and decided to share. I think I am done now.

Random fact:
~In Columbia, an individual can be fined up to $90,000 for gossipping.

Dueces people!
Ebony!
xxxxxxx

Random Tuesday!.

I have been slacking from updating often but whatever I have no reasons neither do I have excuses as to why I have not.....I apologize! I have just not felt the need whatsoever to blog, my fingers do not have the spark anymore, pray for them please. Okay so I am going majorly random because a lot of random stuff from different angles are in my head so roll with me. :)

* I do not know if it is just me but I do not understand why people lack decency. I mean girls YES I am calling you out right now. It hits me like a hammer to my head when I see young girls and I mean young girls using swear words and the likes when there is totally no reason to do so. I mean you can express anger or frustration or whatsoever the case may be that leads you to swear without actually putting those words in. I mean growing up, these are words I have never been allowed to say so why is it that when I leave my home and I am in a different location I go back to doing what I was told not to?! I mean, I am an ambassador of my home even in the most private places I feel I am not being watched. Does it give some sort of class or 'big-girl' status? am I missing something? that is so not my style and for heaven sakes, who will respect you as a LADY? no abeg! It is totally unnecessary. If you do it, no vex abeg I am just talking from my own views.

* Why do GIRLS also feel to look 'sexy' one part of your body or all the parts sef are hanging out? you might as well walk naked, No? I mean you walk into a club looking like a part of your clothing is missing....WHY DO YOU DO THAT TO YOURSELF? and then when guys do what they do best and disrespect you, you will now be angry. You are giving them the green light and when they obey the light you will want to kill, please, cover your assets because they are worth ALOT! and not for every and any kind of person to have the ticket to even see sef! I really wonder what is happening to this generation. I am not saying go looking like mother theresa, all I'm saying is you should cover the necessaries and you will be straight.

* This one just kills me totally, like if I have a gun sef i will want to shoot you. CUT YOUR COAT ACCORDING TO YOUR SIZE EJJJOOOOOOO!!!!. Do not borrow anything, if you do not have it yet, it is not time to have it, borrowing is just not it at all. You become a slave to the person and infact sef just imagine you go out wearing your friends shoe, some one now tells you your shoes are preety, how will you feel answering? especially if the friend is there? It even makes the person you are borrowing from feel superior to you though they may not pronounce it.Please, do not make yourself a slave to any body! Work with what you have and make it glow. Be yourself! Be yourself!.....did I say BE YOURSELF?!

* Carry yourself with poise and charisma. You will always have one opportunity to make a first impression, make good use of it. Let the person next to you want to know why you are always smiling and generally happy. Effect change in the littlest ways possible. Do not be shaken in your beliefs and also never compromise anything. Always say 'Please!' and 'Thank-You' and be nice to whoever even when you do not feel like it. I have learnt to do that always and it has done alot for me especially when the person is not deserving of it.

PS: I did not make my auditions this weekend. I found a new definition to the word "TIRED". I flew to Dallas friday and saturday morning by 5am I was up and my day went on till about 5.30pm. I got home and wanted to faint. Sunday, same cycle all over, we did all we were instrusted to and time for call-backs, I did not here my number but God dey. It really hurt me because this is something I want to do with my life ( in collabo with my Psychology) so I felt really down and just out of it generally. I actually shed a few tears. I got home and slept and just wanted to erase the night but O well!...I am blaming it on my height though because the girls that got called back were stick skinny and LONG! asin they were no longer tall oh it was a Long affair. lol. When the time is right I will get called back so no yawa at all! Holy ghost got my back all the way and if this is my ministry, He will open the door that no man can close...abi?! ehen I know I nailed it.

So I decided to show u a lil pic of me on the day of the event.


Yeah so that is me! I was number 743...If you see how I kept on looking at he number when the call-backs were announced, hmm~ you will wonder. LOL

Have a nice week my people! yaaay so it's november and it is still sunny here. God is tooo much! :) I HATE WINTER!

Random fact:
~Mosquito repellents don't repel. They hide you. The spray blocks the mosquitos sensors so they do not know you are there. :)

Ebony is out people!..I hopefully will blog this week again!

Ebony Reveals!....

Hello my blog family. Hope you guys are on your balling grinds oh! I was on fall break last week so therefore I had no time whatsoever to come here, I commented on some blogs but i read alot. I had no inspiration to blog because I was chilling too much, I slept like a cow. :) My school was so boring because everyone left for break but I stayed with my friend in school. My dorm was so suicidal LOL, u could hear yourself think LITERALLY. You and your shadow could have full converations, it was that deep. I was so ready for everyone to come back to school, the good, bad, annoying, mean-muggers, and everyone else to come so i had people to entertain me with drama.

~~~~~~~So unto the reason of this post!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Drumroll*

I HAVE A MODELLING INTERVIEW IN EXACTLY 13 DAYS FROM TODAY. (October 31-1 November)In Dallas Texas.

I have alot of mixed feelings, happy, nervous, anxious, and a whole lot of ish. Let me tell you guys all about it. So all my life for as long as I can remember, I have always wanted to model (not nude and all, just for the records) so I have always been waiting for an opportunity to do it well. During the summer, I auditioned at two different agencies and I got them both but I turned one down because I do not think they were legit from alot of indications. The second one is the one I am going for in 13 days. You guys should check out he website. It's www.proscout.com they are basically a scouting agency that scout models and if you make the first cut, you are then invited for the main event. In this main event, you are put infront of over 40 top agencies in america, from Elite to Ford to IMG to L.A Models and a large variation of top agencies. I am so excited but I previously was not going to reveal this for a lot of reasons but this is my family...No? anyhooz, you guys should pray for me oh, as I scaled the first audition, let me just slide through to the next level aswell. Someday I shall be on the cover of Vogue magazine and the likes, and blogsville will shout a big .......AMENNNNNNNNN!!!! *waving their Jerusalem handkercheifs* lol. Modelling is my dream, I want to model just for a feel of it and satisfy my longing. If it is God's well, I will get in but if he says no *shrugs* well, I would pursue my fashion line and psychology. There is no time to waste, Keep it going, moving, progress and never settle for less. :) (in my mind now I just rhymed)

Random Fact:
~Victorian ladies tried to enlarge their boobs by bathing in strawberries.
(Please don't ask me I do not understand either) :D

Have a magnificent week. Don't do what you feel you should. LET YOUR CONSCIENCE BE YOUR GUIDE! :)

Thank You Jesus! You ALONE.....

Today being sunday, after church I went for brunch with my girlfriends and as we sat together we just spoke about alot of things from the littlest things you could imagine to the big things. I could not help but thank God for who I am and the life I live. I really honestly do not know why God loves me the way He does, but nevertheless I am so grateful. I am ever so grateful:

* I NEVER STARVE: I always get food to eat. ALWAYS. It is never a problem for me to be hungry and not get food. I walk on streets and see people with signs begging for food and I sometimes make comments such as "Why would they not look for jobs no matter how little and survive as opposed to sitting on the road sides and beg?" But i do not understand what they are going through because I have never been in such a position and I will never be there by God's grace.

* I PAY MY TUITION IN FULL: Well my mum does the paying but it is always settled in full. I do not take any loans whatsoever (PS: I am supposed to have a lower tuition rate because my father schooled here, my sister schooled here and my father became a pastor from the school, It's a christian school so because he became a pastor I have a lower tuition rate) but I do not take advantage of it. People run around school trying to get validated and I sit and thank God because I never have to run around begging and crying for fees to be paid and all. God is faithful.

* I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR: That is a BIG thing to me. I not only have just a few clothes but i have so many clothes and shoes that I am running out of space to put them. Some people do not know what wearing shoes feel like because they have none, here I am always complaining because I do not have a pair of purples shoes to wear with my Little Black Dress. God please forgive me for not being content. I apologise.

* I HAVE NOT BEEN SICK THIS YEAR: Ebony two years ago was a normal hospital customer, No I am not AS or SS I am pure AA but my body apparently liked the hospital environment. I would go to school at 8am and at 10am I was rushed to the hospital about 3 times a week. This year, I have not been to the hospital for anything at all. I can not even remeber having such a headache that would make me take drugs. My mum was so scared when I was coming to school so she fully armed me with medication for all sorts of things, I have a mini pharmacy in my room. I have not popped 1 pill for jack squigley.

* I HAVE A SOUND MIND: My brain has full cordination. I am not under any psychiatric care or the likes. My brain functions. In primary school, I would come 20th out of 21 or something like that and when I was scolded I would reply "Atlease someone else came last" LOL my father was a very loving man. He would tell me "Don't worry my 'A' student, you will make it", how I wish he could see my results these days. He spoke into being Life.

* I HAVE GREAT FRIENDS: I can count all my friends on my fingers because I generally am not loud or really a public person so the fewer the crowd the better for me. Can you imagine what it would be like to have bad friends? people that would shake your foundation and make you go the way they are bending, I have good friends that never fail to snap me back to reality when I want to fall off track. They are more like my family. I love my friends so much, I could not wish for any other set of friends.

* I HAVE A WONDERFUL FAMILY: I do not even know where to begin this, my family is phenomenal. The love we have is on full blast. btw my cousins, auntys, distant relations and adopted people stay in my house, my mother has a large heart so she always has a way of dragging people into the house. I sometimes complain that there are too many people in the house but now that I think about it, it will be a boring house with no life if the people in it should leave. We love honestly, we forgive easily, we do "I'm sorry's" fast and truely. I could go on and on but they are the best.

* I DO NOT HAVE IDENTITY CONFUSION: I know who I am, I know what I should and should not do, I know my abilities and who my parents brought me up to be. Even if I am stuck in a dungeon with the devil himself, I do not believe right now that my morals or values will be compromised. I stumble once in a while because I am only human but I get up fast and pick up the pace in my life. I am Ebony in the light, I am Ebony in darkness, in the rain, in the shine, behind closed doors etc.

* I AM A HAPPY PERSON: I always have a smile on my face or burst out laughing no matter how boring or dumb someones jokes may be. I am melancholic once in a while but on the majority, I am always laughing. Some people do not have a reason to smile or laugh. They feel life is a big punishment to man while to me, it is a big circus experience where you choose what lane to drive on and maintain sanity in your lane.

* I AM SO HAPPY I AM A CHRISTIAN: born, bred, and still living and enjoying the "God experience". I have not found a better alternative yet so I am still on my journey. I owe God everything I have in this world and more. Praise, Worship, Loyalty, and a whole lot of stuff because what he has done for me, hmmmmmm, I do not have any questions whatsoever about His existence.

* I AM NOT EASY TO CONVINCE: :) I really love this fact but again, it can get annoying because I may have a view point I am standing on and someone is trying to make me see where they are coming from and I just cannot see it. On the reverse, I am not influenced by anything. You can do all you want, you can even get upset with me because I do not want to go clubbing with you but I just whisper in my head "You will be okay" LOL I just do not know why I should club and let random guys that do not know me from anywhere rub on me or get free access to my Temple. SHUOOOO!!!! I can play music in my room worse case scenario and have the same good time or go watch a movie with people. It's just my life.

I could go on and on and this was not arranged in ANY order at all. God would be number ONE if that was the case. I am on fall break now and it's getting cold. HISS* I just arranged my wardrobe and put away my summer clothes. My winter stuff is finally, dreadfully out. lol. God is faithful oh! Do not stop chasing your dreams. It may seem they are far away but NO, they just need a little more pushing from you. YOU CAN DO IT. YOU HAVE ALL IT TAKES TO SUCCEED! "Greater is He that is in You....."

Have a great week!

Random fact:
~"Goodbye" came from "God bye" which came from "God be with you."

Ebony.

He loves me. Not....

He slammed my head in the door.
He kissed me deep.
He made promises.
He threatened me.
Black eye.
New shoes.
Busted lip.
Brand new ride.
He hit me.
He begged me.
He said everything.
He meant nothing.
He loves me.
He loves me. Not.....

PS: this is not me. I just got inspired by an event.

Radom fact:
~Beethoven was extremely particular about his coffee, he always counted 60 beans per cup.

Have a wonderful weekend. Remember :You're never fully dressed without a smile.

Ebony.